Monday, June 28, 2010
I thought I would start my post with some new photos taken by a good friend Gail. You can check out the rest of the pictures on her website at firstname.lastname@example.org. I can honestly say that this was one of my favorite photo shoots. Very relaxing. We surprised Dad with these photos for Father's Day this year. He had no idea. So much fun!
I think post adoption blogging is so hard and I have read other blogs that say this same thing. I do continue to check the FBI list almost everyday as I pray for the families in process. I feel as though Adonu is so much a part of our lives that I hardly think of HIM as being adopted. That doesn't mean I don't think of adoption though. In fact, I think of Ethiopia and all those faces of children growing up without a family each and everyday. My heart goes out to them all. I have a very tender spot for all those older children. In their eyes I see my children, nieces and nephews and I think who is reading to, praying with, kissing on and loving these children. They are the same as my children at home, needing love. Not a day goes by where I don't think these things. It seems so big. I spend money and have beautiful photos taken of my four children, but what about all those orphans. I am having a hard time blogging because I can't get this out of my mind and yet I do nothing. Honestly, I feel overwhelmed and don't know where to start. Does anyone else out there have this problem. It is like I feel called to do something, but what. Sponser a child, adopt again, support a program like Kidmia? Does this problem of orpans and where to go post-adoption overwhelm anyone else out there? Seriously maybe it is a form of postpartum depression but for adoptive families? I think I have been subconsiously avoiding blogging because I feel as though I'm doing nothing for those we left behind. All those beautiful faces longing for a family. Ethiopia was the most mentally changing event of my 35 years, but what about life changing?
In the end, God has the answers and I know he will lead me and my family as we continue this journey. For now, I pray for guidance and pray for the ability to surrender my will to his plan for my life.